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Ever felt like you just want to curl up in a ball and just cry your heart out? Well, tonight is THAT night for me. I've never felt shittier than this and i can't remember the last time i cried this hard. I've bottled this up for way too long. It actually felt good to cry it all out. I've never really told you about her ever since i moved to Tumblr, did i? No, it's not Kael. She left me for some other girl and then claimed that she was naive back then. But enough about her, i'm not going to waste my time. I'm talking about this new girl i'm head over heels with. The thing i love most when i'm around her is how she makes me feel. She gives me all kinds of emotions i've never felt towards anybody at all. I know this sounds kind of cheesy but she's my sun after a rainy day. My rainbow, infact. She's the epitome of perfection, she just doesn't know it and i love her. I actually do, i love her more than anything and i don't toss that word around foolishly. It's going to be our one year this 13th (: Well, supposingly.. until we've decided to go on a break. A time-off. Recently we've been having the same argument over and over again. I'm just afraid of losing her. I'm terrified. I've never been this terrified. I can't even stand the thought of it. It's a little too late for all of that now, isn't it? She doesn't care anymore. Blame it on my insecurities, my clinginess, my trust issues.
I just broke down and cried. It was horrible. I was too caught up with all the things i have in my mind that wanting to look attractive (like how those actors and actresses in the telly cries) while i'm bawling my eyes out seems like the last thing i wanted to do.
So much for trying to be strong and bottling up my feelings. Yes, readers.. i'm still alive. It's been a year eh? I know, i know. I'm 18 now but really, who gives a shit? (: Still broke as fuhhhhhh. Anyway, fancy meeting you here too. How's life? Been a while since i last blogged, huh? Tumblr can get really boring at times. It's basically just reblogging pictures that facinates you. I dont know, it pretty much reminds me of facebook but with dresses. Eh, whatever. I miss blogging. For some reason, i'm not in the best mood and reblogging pictures is far from what i want to do right now. Im not saying ive totally ditched tumblr though, dont get any ideas. Call me crazy but i just miss how i used to just stare at this box for 10 minutes straight without having anything to write but end up telling the whole world what i did on that day. I dont really have an an action packed life, you see. I love how i can just blabber about some random things and then feel satisfied about it after i got it all out of my chest. Alot has happened but im not going to sum up my life in a couple of paragraphs and vomit everything here. Let's start afresh. Hi, im Misha. Ps to Kael; Gorgeous, go fix your cam. I mean it.
Ive decided that i should try out Tumblr just because.. But im still so new at it, im lost. I need to figure out a way around Tumblr. I have the strongest feeling that i'll be updating on Tumblr more now, i think. So. http://ikeepdoingmyownthing.tumblr.com OKAY? :D       Photographer; http://snapmyemotions.blogspot.com (:
 ISNT SHE THE MOST ADORABLE THING EVER?! :D HAHAHA! She doesn't know i snapped this.. yet. Hehehe. I love how she would deny it when i told her that i know she's sleepy and needed some rest. Look who is sleeping soundly right at this very point of time. Exactly, mah italifranchite (:
Dear Kael, I know you're asleep right naoo but.. GETYOSXCBUMONLINE. pleaaaseeeee ): imisschu.
 I have been wanting to update for a while now but if you hadnt known yet, im a huge procastinator. Im currently going through a phase in my life that i have never, never never gone through before. It's driving me nuts. But this girl here,  always put a smile on my face. Always. I need to snap an embarrasing, caught-off-guard picture of her the next time we're on cam. You have no idea how sneaky she is. Arent you, chicka?! Arent you?! (: ILOVESYOUBABEHHKKK (: HEHEHEHEHEHE ;] Okay, i just seriously stared at the ceiling for 15 straight minutes and i couldnt think of anything else to write.
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