Well, tonight is THAT night for me.

I've never felt shittier than this and i can't remember the last time i cried this hard.

I've bottled this up for way too long.

It actually felt good to cry it all out.

I've never really told you about her ever since i moved to Tumblr, did i?

No, it's not Kael.

She left me for some other girl and then claimed that she was naive back then.

But enough about her, i'm not going to waste my time.

I'm talking about this new girl i'm head over heels with.

The thing i love most when i'm around her is how she makes me feel.

She gives me all kinds of emotions i've never felt towards anybody at all.

I know this sounds kind of cheesy but she's my sun after a rainy day.

My rainbow, infact.

She's the epitome of perfection, she just doesn't know it and i love her.

I actually do, i love her more than anything and i don't toss that word around foolishly.

It's going to be our one year this 13th (:

Well, supposingly.. until we've decided to go on a break.

A time-off.

Recently we've been having the same argument over and over again.

I'm just afraid of losing her.

I'm terrified.

I've never been this terrified.

I can't even stand the thought of it.

It's a little too late for all of that now, isn't it?

She doesn't care anymore.

Blame it on my insecurities, my clinginess, my trust issues.